I have been thinking about what to write for three weeks now, and lighting hasn’t struck. I don’t know what to write or where to begin, so here I am starting with “I don’t know.” A friendly suggestion came yesterday to write about not knowing. This feeling stuck is such a cruddy feeling. You go through a hundred ideas and mentally cross them all off. You want to write because you’ve set a goal for yourself, yet the days pass and the goal looms unmet. This starts the whole cycle of not doing anything! Have you felt that way? I cannot tell you the number of times I have.
The positivity vibe I was flowing with all of sudden came to a stop too. I began to doubt that I could write. I doubted I have anything helpful at all to say. Maybe it’s simply enough to write about it.
So, where do I start to come back from this stuck-ness? I did notice over the past week that my normal morning routine of 15 minutes of exercise along with my changing negative thinking audiobook, followed by an 8-minute meditation, has also gone out the window. I love how I feel in the morning when I do this routine. Why do we do this to ourselves? You would think we would continue the practices that keep us healthy and feeling good! Does something in our mind decide, not today, today I am just going to feel like crap and thus, we run from the feeling good that comes from doing our morning routine, or whatever your routine is?
Today, is day one of starting over-again. I always think I won’t ever have to start over and I’ll go trapsing merrily along on my happy path. It’s definitely not a factual thought, but maybe I’ll get better at staying on it with practice. So, back to my routine tomorrow morning. Back to waking to thankfulness – yes, it really does help me feel better about the day ahead, even if it’s repeating the same things I was thankful for the day before. It’s okay.
May you all be blessed! And, may you have only a few instances of being blocked or stuck. That is my wish for all of us.
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