Quote from a book call Captivating, a woman’s heart longs “to be romanced, to play an irreplaceable role in a great adventure, and to unveil beauty.”
I remember the breathlessness of racing an Arabian horse across the desert near the pyraminds in Giza. The feel of my blood singing, the flush from the intensity of the pure pleasure, pure freedom, of running across the desert sands. I am ready for the next great adventure.
This quote, the phrase of an irreplaceable role in a great adventure calls to me. It makes my heart stutter and my mind take notice. Notice of the old patterns and habits still lying claim to me. The habits crushing my soul. There is so much more in all of us. We don’t always see it or acknowledge it, and sometimes can’t see it because it’s buried under layers and years of doubt. I got bogged down in fear and self-recrimination until my world shook me enough to see the bonds still tying me; but I also see this fire that is done being banked. I love this part of me.
I still fall into my own mind. I still tip over my words and fail. I fall flat on my face, fill with shame and get up, and walk into my own love. This love is not always a never-ending wellspring, but it is now solidly there. There were many dark days where I felt I’d given up. Being here now is proof I didn’t. I can’t say my next falls into the abyss of feeling a failure or doubting every part of my being won’t knock me down, but it’s different now. It’s been different for a lot longer than I realized.
I am choosing to play with fire. I am choosing to dance in the rain. Dance under the moon. I am choosing to love, to love me, to love adventure. Love big, love with fear, love with doubt, but love. So, relating to the romanced of the quote, I admit I dream of being romanced. I cherish the moments of amazing romance I’ve had in my life so far and know that no future intimate relationship will be complete without it. I’m a woman. My heart calls me to these things. This is not to the exclusion of men. I’m simply learning men’s ties to romance, adventure and beauty are different from women.
May you all remember what lights you up, sets your soul on fire, and love.
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